Remembering and Celebrating

September 11th - wow...hard to believe that 8 years have passed. Everyone is remembering where they were that day. I was at home (living with my parents) getting ready for work. I caught a glimpse of something on TV when I was in my parents' bedroom talking to my mom through her bathroom door, but I didn't really pay attention. Then when I went through the livingroom my dad was watching TV. I thought it was a movie. I asked him what movie it was and he told me that all this was really happening. Then the second plane hit...I drove to work listening to all the chaos on the radio and when I got to work I listened to it some more. It was eerily quiet at work. Not a lot of customers. I was worried about my boyfriend, MA, because he was in the military and by this point they were talking about terrorists and everything else. I remember looking out the windows and not seeing any planes - then there were a few that went by. I was terrified! My boss told me that it was highly unlikely that terrorists would target the pizza shop in Clymer, but hey, that hijacked plane (Flight 93) crashed not too far from where we were.

When I got home I remember watching people jumping from the buildings. I had to go outside. I cried. I felt so bad for all those people looking for their loved ones and waiting for planes that would never land. A girl that used to work with me that I hadn't talked to in awhile called me that night to ask how things were going - she wanted to know if I had heard anything - MA's dad was a bigwig in the military. I guess she thought I might have known something, but I didn't.

So today on Facebook a woman asked me to watch something on YouTube about 9/11 being an inside job...I don't know if it was, but I said I'd watch later and let her know what I thought. I don't think any of us will really ever know what really happened that day, other than a lot of innocent lives were lost.

Anyway, I am 29 weeks pregnant today! Only 11 weeks to go! I had a doctor's appointment and the baby's heartbeat sounds excellent and she is very active. She is much more active than I remember Karlee being. Karlee rolled a lot. This baby likes to kick! Last night I could feel what might have been a leg very distinctively...it was creepy but very cool at the same time. I am very happy to have made it this far. She is my little miracle.

Happy September!

Wow, I can't believe it's September already! September, October, NOVEMBER!!! Wow, this little one will be here before I can get my mind wrapped around it. It's still hard to believe. She lets me know that she's in there...I see the proof as nothing fits and my belly is getting huge...but it's still hard to imagine having another baby! I think I'm more afraid of going through the labor again than actually having the baby with me. Haha! If you have ever heard someone say that you forget all about the labor once you have your baby, then they must have had a decent experience! I STILL remember the labor with Karlee. It is what totally freaks me out about what's to come in the next few months. I hope this time around it is a lot easier.

We still haven't picked a name out for this little one. I think Isabella is probably pretty permanent, but EG doesn't like it as a first name. He keeps bringing up "Catalina". I think of French dressing when I hear that! So that can't be her name. Nadia is okay...I just haven't settled on it. I have always liked Amelia, Emma, Elizabeth, etc., but many people have those names already or are naming their babies one of those names. Ashley's middle name is Elizabeth. As much as I'd love this baby to be Amelia, I don't think it's going to happen. I want to name her something different...she is special to me so I guess I want her name to be very special too. Landynn isn't bad...I just wanted our son to be Landon. I love "K" names but again, there's Karlee and Kelly/Kelita the cat. They sound too similar. When we yell at the cat Karlee cries because she thinks we're yelling at her! There's still a little time left to decide, I suppose.

If everything goes according to plan, I am going to do a little shopping today and tomorrow. Today I'm going to get Karlee a few clothes for the fall and/or winter. Tomorrow I am going to get some much needed new clothes for myself. Tomorrow EG has the day off, so it will be easier for me to shop. I can't try clothes on when it's just me and Karlee, and I hate to buy anything at this point without trying it on first. I love to shop! It's not often that I get to do it, so I'm going to enjoy it!

I am meeting up with some friends this Labor Day weekend that I have not seen in years, so I'm pretty excited about that! I'm sure they will be shocked at my massive weight gain. Ha! Sure I am pregnant, but I am also very heavy. They have not seen me since before my first pregnancy, so I'm sure I look about 100 pounds heavier. No joke! I am pretty self-conscious too. But hey, I'm sure they may have changed a little too. Probably not as much as me, but whatever. Maybe they'll be too happy to see me to notice anything else! Hahaha! I'll just tell myself that, anyway!